on being brave:
Hi Friends, I hope you all had a beautiful weekend. We spent it together finishing house projects, eating around our dining room table and even listening to a thunderstorm which felt slightly magical since we don't get them too often.
Austin snapped these photos above right before we went on a walk and they are so dear to me. I know they aren't really anything special but they pause this sweet and crazy time in my life and capture this moment of tenderness. I have this quote hanging up in our house that's says
"Remember when you wanted what you currently have" and it's my favorite quote I've ever put up on our Letterboard. Each day it reminds me to be thankful for everything I have right now. It's funny but my 17-year-old self would be way impressed with my life right now. All my dreams of what I wanted I pretty much have and I don't say that like "Look at me, my life is so great" my life is far from perfect but I also this its okay to look around and realize what you wanted and now what you have. My life feels so so full in every way, I came in our room the other night and just cried to Austin. I said, " this is just hard, and that's okay but man this season is hard". Of course, there's so much beauty thrown in that but I think what my 17-year-old self would be impressed with is that I'm doing it, I'm not cracking under the pressure, even though some days I might crack a little here or there. But here I am, digging deep and finding my roots and being present. Letting the Holy Spirit convict me and not run away. I use to be a runner, If something wasn't going my way, I'd redirect and find a "new way". If something felt too awkward or I was too vulnerable I would find my way out of the situation and now I'm in it and the best part is I leave those situations stronger, wiser and more confident.
It's funny when you're young, you so badly want to know what the future looks like. The questions like "what am I going to do? who am I going to marry" and the list goes on... and you are almost frustrated because your like WHY WON'T GOD JUST SHOW ME A GLIMPSE???? and then you beg and ask just one little peek at the future Lord... and maybe that's when you get a scripture or a vision or a dream. Maybe you don't hear anything but you keep having faith and remember that He knows the desires of your heart and you have to sit and trust. Which can often be the most challenging....
Seeing where I'm at and remembering where I've been has shown me that the Lord has had his hand on my life this entire time. Recently I've felt the quiet voice of the Lord pointing out some areas in my life he wants to heal and mold. Every podcast, every person I talk too they are all saying the same thing.
This is another one of my favorite qoutes
“Brave doesn't always involve grand gestures, sometimes brave looks like staying when you want to leave, telling the truth when all you want to do is change the subject... sometimes brave looks like boring, and thats totally, absolutely, okay.”
― Shauna Niequist, Present Over Perfect: Leaving Behind Frantic for a Simpler, More Soulful Way of Living
So here I am, standing and feeling the most uncomfortable I've ever felt but also the most brave and I really just wanted to share my heart because its been a while since I've just written for the hell of it and it feels good to be able to share what im learning. Even If its just for me to be able to come back and re-read in a year. The Lord is so faithful and steadfast and will never leave me!
My outfit is from Bird & Kite and the girls are from Paper Linen Supply (the sweetest shop) Our headbands are from Fancy Free Finery